bestie finally told me the truth. i shall not lie to myself anymore. dislike leads to hate. i shall stop everything before he starts to hate.

thanks bestie, i really felt better after i've cried. but, the next day morning(today), i felt the worst ever. everything's rotten. everything's not going my way. everybody's gettin on my nerves. i'll try not to, but im sorry if you become my victim once again, which is most likely gonna be.

i dont know what they've said and i dont want to know. if reali dat's the case, im just disappointed that our friendship cant even withstand their few words.


i dont wanna noe.

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN JESSE! :))
although it wasnt much of a suprise, but hope you've enjoyed your day.:))

lunched at Suki Sushi with se7en to celebrate jesse's birthday.. intended to give her a lil suprise but, she's just too smart eh. x( lols. we did some un-sightly things which are better to be kept between us. =x

went to arcade after which.. we seem like some over-grown pri school kids lar. lols.shopped around, camwhore-d and jesse went off for her 2nd round of celebration, py went home.

went to cuppage and play pool with cf, chad and jon. LOL, we had fun somehow lar. ah huat entertained us. LOL, you wont want to know wat she did. x))

im sick and tired of your that, i'll-treat-everybody-good-except-you dat kinda attitude lar. come on, we are all grown-ups, i know somethings cant be forced, but i just dont understand why are you keep acting in this way, tryin all means to avoid me.

I SERIOUSLY DONT KNOW WHAT YOU WANT.
I MEAN, SO WHAT IF I LIKE YOU?
ARE YOU TRYING TO MAKE ME FORGET YOU?
OR ARE YOU TRYING TO BE MEAN?
OR IS IT THAT YOU'VE FORGOTTEN THE FACT THAT WE RE STILL FRIENDS?
oh damn, mayb we have nvr been friends.

GRAD NIGHT (2211o6)



deb and i. aint she sweet?;)


gladys:) HUGS.


besties.:))


a smile kills. xS


me and enoch.


my dearest, se7en.:)


unforgettable. e2 girls.:)


4e3 `o6


tution khakis. :)


:))


E3 CHALET (2311o6)









hahs, grad night on wed. took lots of pics, there's too many pics.. =x there are still others, but im too lazy to post it all up =x after that we went to py's hse. bought on drinks on the way.. hmm, god damn it. i was a lil drunk and i got high and i splurt out some idiotic things. (to my dear girls:: whatever that i said that night is purely rubbish. dun take it to heart. ESP YVONNE TAN.) i fell aslp kinda early, and heard that i missed out alot. oh no.=x went for prata the next day mornin.x))

x) ytd was class chalet. i screwed up everythg at 1st lar, im supposed to bring 1packet of MARINATED chicken, but i came out in a rush and i brought with me, only HALF a packet of UN-MARINATED chicken. wth. and the weather was fcukin hot lar. bitch it la.

it was a lil boring intially but when BBQ starts, and dewi got drunk, the entertainment started. LOL. BBQ was kinda a bonding session.. fatty melvin was damn funny. and clem was damn hard workin. he's a SUPER cute and nice guy larr .x)) hahas. and after BBQing, some guys went out and bought some drinks.. got to drink a lil, and dewi duno glups how much and she got SOO high. LOL, if i had a chain, i'll definitely chain her to the bed man. went for a walk aroun 3plus. and sth happened and scared the hell outta us. =x checked out early in the mornin today..

to think that its the last chance for us to gather, tears gushed to the brim of my eyes.. for those's who will be studyin abroad next yr, all the best, and i'll be missing you. :)) the times we shared will be kept in our memories and nv be forgotten.

shall blog about the chalet ltr. loads loads of fun ;)) time to catch some slp now.


you were my closest friend and yet you said that right in my face. you said you pitied her, but i dont think that was just all wat you meant..you tried to say, i caused her misery?

im falling sick.
oh like you care.


my leg hurts like hell.
hahs, you dont bother.


I LOST MY PHONE.
oh, better still right?


cant you just understand how it feels? my whole damn mind was flooded with you last night. but, like you even care?

i totally not in the mood for anything. who the hell cares whether grad night's tml or when. im not in the fcukin mood. damn.


i feel, im gonna lose you. i cant do anything now, but hide under my blanket and cry.

uh huh, completed our last paper today. oh well, O'LEVELS IS FINALLY OVER. BUT, i still think there's nth to 'hooray' about.


somehow, i just wish that secondary school life goes on and on.. hahs, bestie shld knoe why eh?we are in the same shoes. LOL. x( but, we cant do much either. life still goes on no matter how unwilling you are..


i waited so long for it to be over, but now, i'll rather use whatever that's comin up to exchange back my time in school. but, nah, fat hope, let it be bah, just lets wait and see, who stays and who goes.. who are the ones that are really worth your treasure.. it might be unpredictable, but i just hope the one that goes will not be you.


hanging out with girlfriends ltr. and ad for tml, i swear i'll stay at home and sleep for the whole day. this damn O's sucked up all my energy. lols. grad night on wed, okay, im fully prepared larr, can say so lar uh, just that there's still some problems with my heels.. i hope they wont fail me one that very day. god bless. =x


oh damn, i've been so moody these few days. bestie suffered the consequences. sorry, i didnt mean to throw tantrums at you. but its just that, im outta my mind, alright, again.


you held me thru and we smiled all way.. but somehow, a figure in front blocked my view, and snatch you away.. im left behind, without you. in my memory, you didnt struggle. yu let off my hand and help onto hers.. without even lookin at me again, you were gone forever. i woke up in the nightmare, prayed that it'll nvr come true. boy, tell me it wont.

oh damnit. dont make me tell you right in your face that i hate you.

i hate you. sayin things that you dont mean it. get your dirty hands off. you faggot.

HAHAS. 2 more subjects, 1 more MCQ.
and, IT'LL BE ALL OVERR! WOOHOO~
hm, so far. alrright~ i hope so..

1o11o6:

=))
a big THANK YOU for ALL the birthday wishes. x))


a big big THANKS N A HUG for BESTIE, thnks for ur 'three-time-wishes' and makin my 'wish come true'. *withlotsoflove. (but this doesnt mean the present is spared. xP)


a big big THANKS, a enormous HUG and a KISS for the othe SIX. =)) and not forgettin my mum, and my sis.. THANKS GURLS, i reali had a big suprise, and im damn touchedd. thanks. *love you girls to the core. <3



a lil cake from my sis. THANKS! =))

''at least a B3.
most prob an A2.
maybe an A1."
=D my motivation.